procrastination, heresy, and navel-gazing.

Saturday, February 23, 2008


whether it was Barthe, or Sartre, i cannot remember, but one of them (or someone else), wrote perceptively about viewing all of life through a camera lens.

the gist was that all our earthly existence we feel removed, abstracted - from our bodies, from our minds, from all that our senses try and tell us.
for who are we indeed, but a camera lens with a running background commentary?

especially now in considering the immanent death of my grandfather, i think i have never felt further removed from the psychicality of reality - that is, the spiritual/mental linkedness with the world. a lack of connectedness, of partaking in the emotional norms, knowing - or even wanting to know - how to react, behave, think.
and not that it is just now, in the present circumstances - they are simply a magnifying lens (no pun intended) that heighten (or deaden?) my understanding.

indeed, as Paul writes,
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.(1Cor13:12)
how i long for that day when abstraction, disconnectedness, a true drinking-in of reality, will be a lasting actuality.

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Blogger Dave Miers said...

hey doub.

will keep praying for you and your family.

looking forward to seeing Jesus face to face.

2:05 pm  
Blogger byron smith said...

Thanks for this moving portrayal of grief. Sometimes the very articulation of it can be healing (not that it makes it go away - in fact, often the opposite. But that's not a bad thing). Prayers for you and your family.

3:15 pm  

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